Best Day Ever

Am I still the best?
Princess wondered again.
Rajakumari is becoming a Rani,
It felt scary to her.
Life is taking another turn.

Forevers left her stranded,
Overwhelming was her life mechanism,
Overthinking was her coping mechanism.
Love evaded her,
She realized she isn't the best anymore.

Pakshe,
Amidst all the chaos,
The storm started retreating,
The coast became clearer.
It all made sense to her now,
Chandu was born again,
Her dreams started coming back,
Everything felt calm now.

Youth is almost gone now,
"One more year of sorrow", she said.
"Ugh, why!"

And the day is finally here,
Rajakumari is 28 now.
Even closer to the dreaded thirties.

She was convinced that she is not the best anymore.
That she is not loved anymore.
In slump, she lost herself.
Life lost her.
Love lost her.

The princess doesn't smile anymore,
Heartbroken, and
Empty.

Back to back heartbreaks,
Endless suffering...but alas,
She decided to read this writeup again.
This time, only the first letters of each line.

Boo, 

Thank you for existing.

You're still the first thought when I wake up, 

The last thought before I sleep.

The most frequented person in my dreams.

Sadly, that's the only way I get to call you mine. Dreams.

Happy Birthday, my love.

You may be overwhelmed right now,

the world is trying to crush you.

Just remember, 

there's no one better than you.

You don't know how happy you make the people around you.

You don't know how proud your people are about you.

You don't know how lucky are those who get to spend time with you.

Just know that there's no one better than you.